Back to the beginning as how I've learned all things return.  The prodigal son, the alpha and the omega...  Very Christian/Catholic, which is perhaps part of the conflict I find with myself in my efforts to adapt to a more universal, cyclical life living.  I was raised thinking and praying for forgiveness.  Sins.  Coupled with the turmoil of instability with the relationships in my house hold, I am now repeating the same instability in different parts of my life.  My salvation is patiently waiting for me.  Waiting for me to decide and take the road to acceptance and freedom.  To begin again and again and again...  from this cycle I feel I am spinning in.  Old friends become new, old lives I've lead will become old souls- the face of my ancestors looking back at myself- it will be all the old faces I've worn facing my fears.  I am the product of many a lives that have been lived.  I only have to now chart & TAKE my course to contribute in the lives that have come into my own.  I choose to be better.  I choose to heal.